Hello there!

I maintain this journal to post and share some of my Heroes fanfiction. Most of my stories are long - you'll find better access to them by using the tag "master list" and checking out the entries that compile links to the separate chapters of my work.

I adore comments and reviews, constructive criticism and even random stuff. Feel free to friend me, but if we don't talk much or I don't know you, please don't feel bad if I don't friend back.

Most of my work is explicit and much of it is Sylar/Peter or Gabriel/Peter. My longest story is still over on FanFiction.Net, but I have plans to migrate it soon.

Please note that just because something triggers me doesn’t mean I won’t occasionally write about it, talk rationally about it or even talk irrationally about it. But if it comes up and I start having a really strong, negative emotional reaction to it as I sometimes do to these subjects … well, that’s why it’s a trigger.

 

Triggers

• Rape where the victim says no and resists, but then later discovers/decides they wanted it all along. Rape where the victim later falls in love with their attacker, or rape where the victim hates the attacker forever - these don’t usually bother me. It’s rape where the victim discovers that no really meant yes, and situations where the victim leads on the perpetrator, then doesn’t want it, gets raped anyway, and then says that yeah, they wanted it - that was why they were leading them on. Flips me right out.
• Questioning my sanity/understanding and memory of reality. Me: "Hey, want to go see movie X Saturday?” Him, angry: “No. You went and saw movie X without me last week.” Me: “Um … no, I haven’t seen movie X at all. And I didn’t go see any movies last week.” Him: “Yes you did! You went and saw movie X without me and I’m really fucking angry about that because I wanted to go see movie X with you, together, and you went and saw it without me!” Me: “I haven’t seen movie X. I didn’t go out at all last week that you weren’t with me.” Him: “Yes you did! You went out Thursday.” Me: “No, I did not. I came straight home from work on Thursday, just like I do every day.” Him: “You went out later, after we argued about it. I told you not to go, but you did anyway!” Me: … “I don’t remember any of that, so, you know, it’s like I haven’t seen the movie and if we go on Saturday, it will be all new to me. Do you want to go see it?” Him: “No, of course not! You’ve already seen it without me.”
• Telling me I want something subconsciously. Or telling me I want something now and asserting to know my mind, wants and desires better than I do. If I’m discussing something with someone and say, “I feel X way about Y,” and someone answers, “You’re wrong! X is not true about Y,” I may not be able to read past where that person told me I was wrong about how I felt.
• Being unable to keep someone away from me, or escape their presence, attention or touch when I don’t want them near me. I have become hysterical in the past about this, not that it helped.

 

I’m sure the astute can tie the above together and figure out why these are triggers for me.

 

Pet Peeves, Annoyances and Hot Buttons

• Being surprised
• Pranks
• People pretending or asserting that sexism, racism, homophobia, classism, etc. don’t exist
• People who judge my value as a human being based on how much I believe in their god. Also, people who equate belief with virtue, absent deeds.
• People who judge my value as a person based on how much I weigh, the color of my skin or hair, my racial background, how much money I have, my sexual experience, or orientation.
• People asserting that because they know a fact or how to do something, that any person who matters would know this information as well. Like saying that someone doesn’t count because they’re not on the internet/on LJ/on FFN/in America/whatever; or saying that if someone doesn’t know X, they must be a 10 year old, a virgin, an ignorant redneck or otherwise too _____ to matter.
• People valuing animals (and only certain kinds of animals, under certain circumstances) more than people. Or infantilizing classes or groups of people and then valuing them more than other people. I understand wanting to help the helpless, but when you demote entire species or groups of people like that, you’ve ceased to respect them and the role they play in running their own lives.
• Drunk, stoned or otherwise impaired people (yes, I know I’ve been known to get a little wasted myself)

 

Phobias

• Men (obviously this is not a terrifying, hide-under-the-bed kind of phobia, but I can’t seem to convince my hindbrain that a man who is alone with me and interested will honor my wishes, and so I get tense and hair trigger. I have no idea how I’m going to handle dating. I suspect “badly” will be a good descriptor.)
• Rejection
• Social disapproval
• Maggots getting on my skin (or in my food)

Hey there! Memorial Day weekend and we're starting on season 4! Today's episode is Orientation. Watching will start at 6 pm or as close to it as you can manage. At 6, I'm not positive we'll have Meanie, I'm pretty sure we won't have DD3, and I know I'll be spotty - but everyone has said they'll join and comment when they're able. So, feel free to post comments anytime.

This is an awesome article about the writing of strong female characters, and strong, interesting, whole characters in general. You should read it. Really. Like right now! Here's an excerpt:

No character - no well-created character, at least - is defined by only one trait, by one aspect. Sherlock Holmes is not simply brilliant. He's also a malfunctioning human being who, perhaps ironically, possesses a strong moral compass and such a compulsion to pursue justice that it eclipses any fealty to the law. He's also a junkie.

Harry Potter is not the scar on his forehead, nor is Matthew Scudder solely an alcoholic, nor is V.I. Warshawski just a "female" private detective. Character is biology, countless cells and processes, many of them invisible to the naked eye, yet together forming a whole. A character's gender, like their religious upbringing or their faith, like their favorite book or food, like their sexual orientation and experiences, like their education and their childhood, is a component of character.

I’ve been posting, emailing, and commenting less recently. Some of you might be waiting on responses from me in various threads or emails. Don’t be shy about prodding me if I seem to have forgotten, because that’s very likely what has happened! This last Monday, I started a new job. It’s going to sharply decrease how much writing I get done, at least for a while as I work out the new pattern.

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I'm tossing this out there so all you peeps who recently rewatched the shows (and anyone else with a phenomenal memory, or just an opinion), can poke holes in this. The timeline below represents my best guess of what canon is. I find it HIGHLY unrealistic and for my Syko stories I fully intend to expand it - probably to something like 2-4 weeks. But before I stray from canon, I want to be sure I understand what canon is. So here's the timeline. Please nitpick!

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Hello All -

The start of the season 4 rewatch has been post-poned from Sunday, May 20 to Sunday, May 27. I have family stuff happening tomorrow (the 20th) that I can't get an exact time nailed down on and at least one other person was going to have to skip. So since we're at the beginning of a new season, let's take a week off and restart the rewatch on May 27, normal time. Looking forward to it!

What's left on my to-do list before my work resumes?

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